porcelain

uoh ... who wrote that ...
sleepless wicked me
hm
i hate winter
i want choclate
give me some, please
ease my mind

theburningred

6:05 am. didn't get one minute of sleep. kill me. i died to many times. can't stand it this time. leave me alone. i fuck things up all the time. kill me. i'd appreciate that. i am already dead. 6:10 am . sad. leave me alone. no school for me today. take the pain. could have been nice. i'm so weak. kill me. i will die. i am dead. smells like blood. leave me alone. i can't stand it. a predictable end. maybe not. i am so naiv. smells like blood. have a little faith in god. god is dead. i am god. 6:17 am. laid to rest.

swan dive

I can look back to another 'i am so depressed because i'm one year older again, now I have to get drunk'-friday. It all started when Steve came to my place to have a little jamsession with me. Some time later Maria appeared and as usual her endless talking started to make me kinda tired ;) (she's nice though!) But the real beginning of this pretty night was when Susi and Zac appeared with a bottle of prosecco. We had another one after it... At 10 pm we finally decided to bring ourselfs to go to the poolhall before we would fall asleep. We met some nice people there, some of them invited me for a drink, I invited myself some times, so you might imagine, I was drunk pretty fast and playing pool was really funny then. I was good anyway. Don't know exactly if anything interesting happened after that, but I don't think so :D

Twentytwo . Ventidue . Zweiundzwanzig (22)

So now I am 22. Doesn't feel very special, I just want to get drunk now, but I'll gotta wait till friday to have some parteey xD Somebody told me I have to make plans for family and children now, but I think I'll give it another year *haha* ... or some more ...
I'll finally finish school this year and I'm looking forward to earning my own money so much.
Just need a good job now, hm ... any ideas? mail me.
see ya

nu-metalcorehardcorepunkrockfuck

I know I am late. but who the fxxx cares?
There was a massive traffic jam on saturday so we had to postpone our session to the next day. To make it short ... it was great! I think we have a new drummer, and this one kicks ass. We'll work on some songs now and maybe even record something soon.
I went out with one of my best friends Susi which I haven't met for some weeks before and I got to know her boyfriend Zac, which forced me to speak english the whole night ... not quite easy after some beers, believe me xD
On saturday I was at Hannes place for some jammin', that was pretty cool too. And spending some time with my girlfriend after it, I was looking forward to that the whole week. All in all it was a very nice weekend once again.
Hm ... this entry has a big lack of 'weirdness' (I just invented that word), but I will catch up on that next time!

smells like rock'n roll

long time no entries, i guess that is because my life sucks as hell and it is booooooooring. but yea, here i am again, but i won't talk about my weird mind today. or maybe i will. who knows?
tomorrow i'll have some jam session with steve and our (new drummer?) domi, i'm looking forward to plugging in my jackson guitar and playing some shit. i'll tell you more about it tomorrow xD
kill.

mate-feed-kill-repeat

"grindcore is ned guad für de birn" - to quote a friend. check out 'rompeprop' this shit is really mad. i kinda like it. at least sometimes. but at the end of the day i end up with a7x, bfmv or machine head just like every day.
how to define a perfect weekend? drinking with my best friends, beeing with the most beautiful and nice girl walking on earth, heavy metal and the wonderful feeling of beeing dead on sunday morning. if this is my expectation of a perfect weekend i guess this one was pretty close. i just realized that i sound much too optimistic. i am emo. cutting myself. ewww that hurts. i'll stop that. have a nice week. +argh+ thinking of school takes me down again :/ ... better read hannes' blogs - they are longer xD