emotions

Sie sagte eine Weile nichts und ich auch nicht. Wir gingen einfach weiter. Ich kam inzwischen schon besser klar mit diesem Arm-in-Arm-Gehen. Langsam fing ich an, es zu genießen und zu begreifen, dass es wirklich eine ziemlich gute Art zu gehen ist, wenn einer von beiden weiß, wohin, und der andere nicht. Man braucht nichts zu fragen und auch keine Vermutungen anzustellen, wohin es geht, man muss sich nur auf den anderen einstellen, dann spürt man nach einer Weile allein durch den Körper des Partners, wohin er will.

hey you.
I was reading the whole day, my brother had to read a book for school but he could not manage it to read it within 2 months. idiot. it took me 5 hours. or 6. dunno exactly. had some breaks for playing guitar and beating matt in some chess. a very emotional lovestory. including whores and drugs. and drug addicted whores. and violence. but it mainly was a very tragic lovestory which made me melancholic for a while. i still am. gonna watch some dvd now. ideas? hm maybe something funny. adam sandler? good idea. happy gilmore? great.

easter

celebrating the death of somebody? why not. kinda stupid though. actually i am greatful to some people, but jesus is not among them. usually you don't even get presents for easter. and what's idea about this stupid bunny? i am so sick of all the 'happy easter' shit. boring.
i wanna be happy now. jesus make me happy. then and i will praise you. i will go to every single one with a smile on my face saying "HAPPY EASTER". otherwise you and your feast still bore me. i am waiting.
i'll rather get some alcohol. cheers.

recover

life is a rollercoaster. as hannes' favorite artist RONAN KEATING said once!
i gotta clear my mind and arrange my thoughts a little bit.
TV makes me stupid. But I like that. Listening to A7X and watching stupid Jonathan Frakes in X-Factor at the same time is pretty funny. Give it a try! haha.
Hmmmm... maybe we can manage it to record a song today. We have two songs now. One of mine, it is about killing and stuff I once posted a drawing of it xD and the last 'Flying Sticks song' without a name because Matt wrote the lyrics and he needs time to think of one (it is 1 year old now *lol*).
Have a nice day. Or not. Whatever you want. Don't trust in girls. Or humans in general. I like animals. Holy shit. What am I actually talking about?!? I should become a politician. Talking about nothing for hours, I can do that. I can do it well. haha.

porcelain

uoh ... who wrote that ...
sleepless wicked me
hm
i hate winter
i want choclate
give me some, please
ease my mind

theburningred

6:05 am. didn't get one minute of sleep. kill me. i died to many times. can't stand it this time. leave me alone. i fuck things up all the time. kill me. i'd appreciate that. i am already dead. 6:10 am . sad. leave me alone. no school for me today. take the pain. could have been nice. i'm so weak. kill me. i will die. i am dead. smells like blood. leave me alone. i can't stand it. a predictable end. maybe not. i am so naiv. smells like blood. have a little faith in god. god is dead. i am god. 6:17 am. laid to rest.

swan dive

I can look back to another 'i am so depressed because i'm one year older again, now I have to get drunk'-friday. It all started when Steve came to my place to have a little jamsession with me. Some time later Maria appeared and as usual her endless talking started to make me kinda tired ;) (she's nice though!) But the real beginning of this pretty night was when Susi and Zac appeared with a bottle of prosecco. We had another one after it... At 10 pm we finally decided to bring ourselfs to go to the poolhall before we would fall asleep. We met some nice people there, some of them invited me for a drink, I invited myself some times, so you might imagine, I was drunk pretty fast and playing pool was really funny then. I was good anyway. Don't know exactly if anything interesting happened after that, but I don't think so :D

Twentytwo . Ventidue . Zweiundzwanzig (22)

So now I am 22. Doesn't feel very special, I just want to get drunk now, but I'll gotta wait till friday to have some parteey xD Somebody told me I have to make plans for family and children now, but I think I'll give it another year *haha* ... or some more ...
I'll finally finish school this year and I'm looking forward to earning my own money so much.
Just need a good job now, hm ... any ideas? mail me.
see ya