Donnerstag, 5. Juli 2007

he who makes a beast out of himself

gets rid of the pain of beeing a man.

writing letters of application, talking to companies, practising with the band, meeting friends. hoping to get a job. writing songs. playing them with the band. forget them. writing new ones. hope to have some good ones sometime. listening to heavy music getting heavier from day to day. reading a book. drinking coke. chatting. waiting for something good. sleeping :D

Mittwoch, 9. Mai 2007

seize the day (or die regretting the time you lost)

so you think my entries have been boring latley? depressive?
then maybe you have a little impression of me as a person now. haha. just joking. i am not boring! ^^ and I am happy from time to time. so stop judging me for my posts, ok? didn't force anybody to read them at all. they just help me to think clear about things sometimes. and my thoughts have been really confused in the last weeks. kinda funny how single persons are able to control your feelings so much sometimes. i'm feeling sad and kinda lost because one girl broke up with me one and a half months ago, shouldn't i feel better slowly? hm ... maybe an emotional person like me takes longer times for relief :P things are always getting better at one point, you just have to wait. i like to spend time with her as a friend anyway. i'm not a child, i can stand that. just stop dreaming and face reality. this is what i do, i'm successful with that on some of the days, but i'm not on some others. so what is right and what is supposed to be wrong? i lost the view about that a long time ago and i stopped trying to figure out what is the best way to go, i just go on and take my fate, whatever it is, whatever comes. so you might wanna know what else is new?! some little thoughts in my head deals with other things too. believe it or not :P ... Hetzi is going to move to Tyrol next week, this is the best news in ages because it is hard when your best friend lives so far away sometimes. icq, msn & cell phones help to handle that though. hehe. that also means that we can start real bandpractises next week, how cool is that??? we're going to have a photo session with zac, and we will record 2-3 demo songs in july. school is working out quite 'ok' again and i'm still looking for a job around. maybe moving into an appartment with Hetzi and his girlfriend in summer / autumn. sounds cool huh? :) yaaaaaaaaaay this post is already too long, if you read all of that you got a quite deep view into my personal hell now. better forget everything again, just my weird thoughts on one rainy day written down. don't mind. and be aware. wolves bite, and so does life!

Dienstag, 8. Mai 2007


sup? im bored. watching dr. house, but i know the episode. die

Sonntag, 29. April 2007


feelings suck.

Montag, 9. April 2007


Sie sagte eine Weile nichts und ich auch nicht. Wir gingen einfach weiter. Ich kam inzwischen schon besser klar mit diesem Arm-in-Arm-Gehen. Langsam fing ich an, es zu genießen und zu begreifen, dass es wirklich eine ziemlich gute Art zu gehen ist, wenn einer von beiden weiß, wohin, und der andere nicht. Man braucht nichts zu fragen und auch keine Vermutungen anzustellen, wohin es geht, man muss sich nur auf den anderen einstellen, dann spürt man nach einer Weile allein durch den Körper des Partners, wohin er will.

hey you.
I was reading the whole day, my brother had to read a book for school but he could not manage it to read it within 2 months. idiot. it took me 5 hours. or 6. dunno exactly. had some breaks for playing guitar and beating matt in some chess. a very emotional lovestory. including whores and drugs. and drug addicted whores. and violence. but it mainly was a very tragic lovestory which made me melancholic for a while. i still am. gonna watch some dvd now. ideas? hm maybe something funny. adam sandler? good idea. happy gilmore? great.

Samstag, 7. April 2007


celebrating the death of somebody? why not. kinda stupid though. actually i am greatful to some people, but jesus is not among them. usually you don't even get presents for easter. and what's idea about this stupid bunny? i am so sick of all the 'happy easter' shit. boring.
i wanna be happy now. jesus make me happy. then and i will praise you. i will go to every single one with a smile on my face saying "HAPPY EASTER". otherwise you and your feast still bore me. i am waiting.
i'll rather get some alcohol. cheers.

Samstag, 24. März 2007


life is a rollercoaster. as hannes' favorite artist RONAN KEATING said once!
i gotta clear my mind and arrange my thoughts a little bit.
TV makes me stupid. But I like that. Listening to A7X and watching stupid Jonathan Frakes in X-Factor at the same time is pretty funny. Give it a try! haha.
Hmmmm... maybe we can manage it to record a song today. We have two songs now. One of mine, it is about killing and stuff I once posted a drawing of it xD and the last 'Flying Sticks song' without a name because Matt wrote the lyrics and he needs time to think of one (it is 1 year old now *lol*).
Have a nice day. Or not. Whatever you want. Don't trust in girls. Or humans in general. I like animals. Holy shit. What am I actually talking about?!? I should become a politician. Talking about nothing for hours, I can do that. I can do it well. haha.